Pain is hard. Then there’s pain from a sudden death and that, that feels too difficult for words. It’s taken me over two months just to be able to sit down and write another decent post since my grandmother passed away in May.
When I think of her, I just never know what emotion is going to come rushing to the surface. Will it be sorrow because I miss her, anger at the suddenness of it all or joy at a beautiful memory of her? It’s anyone’s guess which emotion is next.
I want to both thank everyone that reached out with comments and prayers, and also tell you, my readers, that I’m sorry. I’m sorry I’ve neglected this blog for so long this summer. Blogging comes with a responsibility and level of commitment that I’ve shirked lately. Not to keep going back to it, but every time I sat down with my blog schedule and determined to hammer out some words, I’d see the picture and the memorial post and I’d just walk away. Today I’m determined to get back at it. I was re-reading several of my favorite vacation posts, and stumbled upon a comment from my Grandma. She has always been one of the readers of my blog(s) and I could count on her for an encouraging comment or email after every post. If you’re a fellow blogger I know you can attest to the feeling of, is anyone out there? Is anyone reading this? Even if my only reader was my Grandma, at least I knew my words weren’t just hanging out there alone in cyberspace.
It’s time to move forward though, and regardless of my sorrow and my slightly smaller reader count, I’ll press on with the wonderful blog I’ve come to love.
Realtor on the Road is back! Can’t wait to share life with you this fall – I’ve got some cool posts coming up! Until then, what have you all been up to? How has your summer been?
xoxo,
Stacey
